TW Part 1

It’s been another strange few weeks. I read the report written by the social worker I was assessed by and I was taken back at how inaccurate it was. From seemingly minor things like writing I went to uni in Southend when I actually went to uni in Canterbury, to things like I supposedly don’t notice when my mood is deteriorating…

I do notice when my mood is deteriorating but my mood becoming low is typically a very gradual decline and I usually notice when things have become harder than they used to be and/or I’m not enjoying things like I used to or my concentration and memory aren’t as good as they used to be etc.

Oh and apparently I have a dependent personality, that one left me speechless… I could go on but I wrote quite a long email to my care co expressing my thoughts and she came back and said she completely agreed with me. Why is it so difficult to listen to someone and write an accurate report?

Last week I had my CPA which was quite overwhelming as there were a lot more people than usual. The psychiatrist who had me assessed under the MHA attended as she is now looking after my depression. My ED psychiatrist and care co were there, as well as a couple of others from the Kent ED service and the clinical lead, housing manager and nurse from here.

In short; the Kent team feel I need a more suitable therapy for my depression and “complex” needs with a more qualified therapist as I currently work with a student (which I don’t feel is fair on her tbh). The problem is we don’t know where we’ll get this therapist from as the local CMHT don’t offer their therapeutic services to those living in the service I live in. It went on for over an hour and tbh I lost focus, but they did say how hard I was trying which was nice of them.