Hey, it’s this Tumblog again! I took a really long absence from Tumblr due to moving and some personal feelings toward a large chunk of the Internet (the culture at least). 

However, I am happy to have found this one again, because it was really fantastic as it celebrated all body types, not just a small margin.

I’ve been feeling more myself by dressing how I want, even if that means I get looks from people who wonder what the fuck I’m doing. I actually met a wonderful person where I currently live who inspired me to return to this style of dress, even if it isn’t for everyone and even if I am older than most of the people who might otherwise dress in a similar fashion. 

This is what makes me happiest and I look at it no different than wearing makeup or doing up my hair (I cheat and wear wigs a lot). The only difference is how bright I am.

I’ve been working slowly on getting back into a healthy lifestyle and weight due to a chronic disorder. Doctors are making me cut out a lot of foods in an attempt to problem solve and while it’s frustrating, I know they are just trying to help. This month, it’s no dairy. Next month, it’s no gluten. Chances are, I’m reacting to soy as well given what I’m learning this month, so that’s always fun.

Anyway, I’ve been working really hard on trying to love myself. I get that when I’m in costume I look much smaller than I actually am. I also get that I look younger than I actually am. So I am trying to love myself out of clothing and that is really, really hard. I’ve slowly been working on working up the courage to post a shot in which I’m in lingerie or some sort of tasteful nude.

I just find this journey somewhat hard considering at one point, I used to work as an art model. That means I slept or read nude in front of hundreds of students a day. Students who I would then sit in class with later on in the day/week. I had no problem with my body then and I was overweight by current standards. There were even some harsh comments made by people who didn’t realize that the model they were sneering at in the photos left on the hallways was actually standing right behind them. Back then, I was somehow able to brush it off. However, as I got older, that’s changed a lot. Possibly because my network of nice and friendly people has diminished to practically zero due to traveling and being an adult.

Ugh. 

Anyhow, that’s enough from me. I look forward to seeing more submissions and being enlightened and encouraged by your smiling faces. <3

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